I can’t tell you how happy I have been lately since last year I have been missing something. I want to give you a quick timeline.
6th grade: No friends
7th grade: 3-4 friends
8th grade: 16-20+ friends
Summer before 9th grade: No friends
9th grade: 5+
You see something about the thing above this, None and I mean none live in my state, all online.
Look at the summer before 9th grade, I want to explain a little bit about this, My best friend Owen was not so much of a friend. I quickly became friends with his friends, but the year was about to end, so we started a discord server, then a Minecraft server… That’s where it got rocky, they were just plain rude and manipulative to me, do this do that, you don’t want to do it? you are just a baby, your retarded, and so on and so forth. Eventually, I just said fuck you guys and I blocked them all because if you want to disrespect me you can fuck right off.
In late September I started struggling with my gender identity, and losing all of my friends didn’t help, I was overthinking a lot, and only recently stopped struggling with that, and I’m a lot happier now. But going through this I let my pride get in the way and I kept silent about my struggles, and I should have said something, but I’m better now.